Back to the same ol'

This is a post for the ladies. Seeking some advice here. I am so frustrated. So, it seems that my perfect blood sugars lasted for one week and then right back to out of control. That's right, my bs's were great for the week that I had my period. That has never ever happened before. It was such a great week. I felt like i had the control that i had been missing for years. Then, as soon as my rag was done, so were the good bs's. This has me so down. Also, on Wednesday this week my good eye started to bleed again. What the hell?!?!?! I haven't been able to see out of my right eye for 2 months, but I had gotten used to that...I know, weird. But now my other eye is @$%^#$! I had to go home from work because I couldn't see. Now, they won't let me come back until I am cleared by a doctor. I am scared to go to a doctor because they could pull my license. This is such a viscious disease. I feel like I can't do anything right. I need help.

Finally!

I am in complete awe. It all started on Monday - well, actually on Sunday night. I decided to get on the scale. Yes, horrible idea, but it had to be done. It was not a pretty sight to see those numbers go as high as they did. It has been years since I weighed that much. I lost a lot of weight back then...but it's back. So, I decide, yes, it's time. It's time to make a change. I've "decided" this so many times it's ridiculous. But for some reason, it felt different this time. And so far.....it has been different!!! My blood sugars have been AMAZING!!! I have been doing so well this week it's unbelievable. I never realized I could actually have this much energy! The funny part is, is that I've gone to bed early almost every night because I've been so active during the day. Craziness. So now, I have to get my eating habits reined in. I have started this week with that as well. I have eaten breakfast every day which is a miracle for me. I'm just having issues with my hunger. I've been trying to eat right and everything but i find myself SOOOO hungry that I just start eating whatever I can get my fat little hands on. Any ideas anyone??? Hmm. So, here's my theory with the great BS. Ever since I got my pump I've only had the infusion sets in my stomach. For some reason I thought I'd try my leg last week and that is when I started getting these perfect numbers. Weird. Oh well, I'm not complaining.
I still can't see out of my right eye. I have two weeks to go until I go back to the opthamologists. I've been trying this "new" treatment: wait 2 months and go back. What a joke. I've had so many laser surgeries and so many injections that it blows my mind that we're just waiting. Like it's going to clear itself up. Nope, no such luck. I've gotten used to the whole one eye deal, I'm just very anxious about the snow. So far so good, no snow...but we all know it's coming.